I’m determined not to have God pry another thing from my “death” grip…pun intended. In my own hands is where the best of God suffers certain dilution and diminishing. No more asking Him to take “it,” yet still giving “it” prime real estate in my heart and mind. It hurts so much. Still. After years … Continue reading
“I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait on the Lord : be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.” Psalms 27:13-14 (KJV) In other words: I would not have made it if I … Continue reading
These days, I’m doing all I can to keep my heart from turning into a brick. And that’s not really saying much because I’m exhausted beyond words, rendering that “all I can” fairly ineffective. Seems like a heart in pieces is exponentially heavier and less mobile than a whole and happy one. I’m so over … Continue reading
“Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am. I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy … Continue reading
Last night I had a strange dream. My mother and I were leaving a high school basketball game going to go pick up something for a family friend at her beauty shop. The shop was in a sketchy part of town, but we weren’t really concerned until it was time to exit the building. There … Continue reading