It’s been a really long time since I’ve just written in an impromptu fashion like this. Not sure how congruent the content will be, but at least I can declutter my mind a little…
I lost a good friend exactly a week ago. Actually, she was killed. We spoke just before the New Year. She was telling me how excited she was about this guy she’d been seeing for a while…I was telling her about how much I was looking forward to spending NYE with a new friend. We talked about how we always talk about going on vacations, but we really needed to make good on it in 2016. Other routine girl talk. I can’t stop thinking about it all.
Situations like this totally make one channel their perspective. At a time where so many questions remain, there’s one answer that seems to quiet them all (at least for me). God is good. Still and always. When I reached out to Him about this, He flooded my heart with His presence. He was always there, but it felt almost as if it was activated when I called out. He is constantly affording me new opportunities to “see” Him. If only I’d be so persistent in taking advantage.
The craziest reality of all is just how life really does go on. The world around me was so oblivious to the grief that paused my world this week. But God isn’t…never has been. I’m intensely grateful for His nearness and attentiveness to the matters of my heart. Not just the grief, but everything that occurs there. He knows, cares and has the sole ability and authority to do something productive with it. I know I’m not the only one who will miss Lauren, but I pray that this awareness of God’s presence captivate the hearts of those who knew and loved her just the same.