As you know, life has become quite the enigma for me these past few months. Some super highs and equal lows…so many unanswered questions and so much uncharted spiritual territory. But as I’ve taken this time to reflect on Father’s Day and your presence in my life, I am overwhelmed with gratitude for this momentary clarity of thought.
After years of arithmetic, algebra, calculus, trig, geometry, etc., a numbers-minded girl like me comes to appreciate a solved equation. I believe that every life begins with a complex equation and, as life is lived and the identities of the variables are revealed, the equation begins to make sense. I’ve done quite a bit of figuring, factoring, reconciling, etc. over the years, but I think the most productive of those times took place this afternoon. Just thought I’d share what I’ve come up with…
Daddy, I just want to thank you so much for choosing Christ and for being so diligent in your pursuit of His heart. For humbling yourself under His Hand. For choosing every day for the past 32 years to love, honor and cherish mom. All of the above is priceless to me because, in choosing God’s way, what you really did was choose to be a constant in the equation that defines my identity. Fixed, unchanging, permanent. Resolute in your devotion to us…steadfast in your commitment to God. I am so blessed to have you as an integral part of my “base formula.” You’ve given me the opportunity to know who I am and set a baseline of expectation for the [often elusive] next variable that is God’s to reveal.
People search a lifetime to find the answers that I’ve been blessed with from the start. It’s quite overwhelming because I’m so undeserving. I may not always tell you, but I don’t take for granted the game-changer that you’ve been in my life. If you were not here and your value never revealed, my life would be drastically different…but for God’s grace. You have loved me so good that I’ve never [ever] had a difficult time solving for “why”…as one of the few constants in my life, I always have my answer. By way of your unconditional love, I am blessed with a rare glimpse of a fraction of God’s love for me (If only I could fully grasp this!). Thank you for always choosing well, loving others and striving to be “salt and light” in this world. In doing so, you’re helping reveal the biggest, most important Constant known to man…the Love of Christ. Daddy, you are simply outstanding…I love you so much. Period. Happy Father’s Day:)!
P.S. Cracking you up and making you smile like this pic are a couple of my favorite pastimes…:).